What if I lose my step and I make fools of us all?
Will the love continue when my walk becomes a crawl?
What if I stumble? And what if I fall?"
- DC Talk's "What if I stumble?"
For the past week and a half, I have been stumbling. Both emotionally and in my faith. They are intertwined though. I have been feeling guilty that I did not do enough to help a friend in need, that I helped her but then I left the area and am not there to physically support her. I have been able to work through that feeling for the most part, but then another blow. I felt abandonded. Because the people that are helping her decided I could not visit her for two-three weeks and her and I were both already struggling because we both felt I should be with her and not at home. I felt like I was being abandonded by them and by God. How could God let me sit here feeling so guilty and then add another blow? I gave up on Him for a few days. I have started praying again, but not nearly as much as I was before all this happened. I haven't read my Bible though, well nearly as much as I should be for a time like this. I have a tendancy to do really well with everything spiritually when everything in my life is going well, it is when things are not going so well that I stumble. Odd fact, which seems rather backwards to me, but I read somewhere (not sure where) that more people are good with God in the bad times and forget to rely on Him during the good times as well. Does that seem a little bit backwards to anyone else?
I am also stumbling because I have been wearing a covering in the house and everywhere since I got back from my mini-vacation almost 2 weeks ago (yay!), but it has put up a wall between my parents and I who despise my covering. They say it makes them uncomfortable and I need to think about how I am making others feel before I put it on. Odd? To me that is. They have never once told me to think of other people first before what I am doing for my Lord. However, they do not believe this command is from the Lord, they believe it is from Paul who my mom's pastor calls a "pharisee fanatic".
Those are my stumbling blocks right now, how are you doing in your walk with the Lord? I am slowly starting to crawl again and hope to pick myself back up when I am able.
Blessings in Christ,
Chelsea, I am here for you.
ReplyDeleteI have been wearing a covering around the house, and yesterday was my first time to wear it out.
I am sorry your parents feel uncomfortable,but you gotta do what YOU feel is right :)
I am here for you..
Thank you. Today I was "kindly asked" to not wear my coverings in the house anymore. So I am back to where I was before my trip a few weeks ago, covering when I am out and in my room only. But if my parents have their way I will not be covering when I am out anymore.
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