Crawling...

I have begun to crawl I think, but I may be knocked down again. One friend has been helping to hold me accountable with God. I am all to ready to give up on Him for a time more. I just cannot grasp how He would allow all to happen that is happening right now. She has given me "homework" as she likes to call it :) Writing out specific scripture verses by hand. I know for sure it will help with scripture knowledge, I just am not sure if it will help strengthen my faith again.

I am back to my covering when I am out of the house and in my bedroom. It causes too much "discomfort" for my parents when I cover in their house so I was asked not to. I am doing my best to respect their wishes, but I also feel like I am disobeying God and do not know how to compromise on this. Or do I not compromise? They are blaming my sadness on my covering as well. Seems odd to me because I love my covering. It is everything else in my life that is causing me to be sad and quiet now, but they don't seem to recognize that as the cause.

I am looking forward to this weekend though, I get to go visit my friend :)

I am sharing my struggles to hopefully allow everyone to see that as strong as I may be in my faith at some times, I certainly am not that strong all the time. This time is one that I am definitely struggling. It is certainly not hte first time I have struggled this much and I guarantee you this will not be the last!

Blessings in Christ,